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I lied...
I think if it were even possible for me to hate someone (there's really only one person I truly dislike..)
But even if I could ever bring myself to hate you or say that I hate you...
..I am fully convinced that you wouldn't care.
I wish I could feel that way.
I wish I could just flip a fucking switch and just stop caring.
Even better, I wish I knew why I cared so much! Why the fuck do I feel this way? This really sucks.
Is it some kind of game for you? Or...maybe you don't even realize anything? I'm still a person that deserves responses.... I don't even want fucking answers...just respond like you used to...
It turns out that maybe I lied? I didn't know I still felt this way...but obviously I do...
also unrelated note, my teeth fucking hurt. not making this any better.
132.8
Just writing out a few goals that I have for the remainder of 2014! It's crazy to say that, isn't it? 2014 just got here and it's already more than half way done! Time flies by way too quickly. Time is such a relative thing...Whenever I'm at one job, two minutes feels like no time at all when I'm taking orders, making orders, and sending them out the window. At the other, two minutes takes much longer than I think while waiting for this disc to finish spinning so I can wipe the polishing compound off of it and hand it to the customer...anyways! Back to goals for the remainder of 2014. These are in no particular order as far as my list goes...some are definitely more important than others though..
- get my driver's license
- acquire a vehicle of sorts
- continue looking for a job in my field
- get fit (currently at 132.8, would like to see 125, was pushing 150 at my highest)
- stay single until AT LEAST my birthday
- ride my bike at least an hour a day?
- do something will all this origami paper I have (any requests?)
- rearrange my room into something I love
- create a reasonably sized wardrobe (perhaps participate in something like 15/30?)
I started writing this last night actually but forgot to post this! Here is also a list of some kind of dreams? Like maybe a bucket list of sorts but not really...let's just go ahead and say that it would be REALLY cool to work for one of these places:
- khan academy
- google
- NOAA
- USGS
So yeah....perhaps at some point in my life's journeys will take me to one of these places....at 24 years of age I feel WAY behind achieving this....but perhaps I am exactly where I need to be right now? Because if not, where else would I be?
