Here I am again...four months later...I guess I don't really know what it is that I want...do I want it all right now? Why do I treat it that way? I'm 24 years old...I have so much time ahead of me...I just want love and happiness and someone to hold me right now....
It is a time like this where I obviously need to take a step back from myself and breathe deeply and really think about myself and what I'm doing and where I'm going....as hard as I want to be independent and say that I am..... really I don't think I am....it's like I need someone else to validate myself....that shouldn't be true..
I get so much joy and happiness from feeling wanted and cared for... but really it's not there...
I need to want myself first right? This sucks a lot.
Good thing I have plenty of stuffed toys to keep me company..