“if only you could see”

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I'm holding my breath. I'm holding my breath as I take the plunge. There is a slight breeze but the water is still. The surface reflects the light and I pretend it is a mirror that reflects the world above. I let my body fall into the water and the suddenly I am jolted by how cold the water is. I open my eyes and it takes a moment for me to adjust, but soon I realize there is an entirely new world the below the water's surface. Fish live and breathe under here. For a moment longer I hold my breath, but soon I return to the surface and inhale deeply. This isn't right, but it feels nice. I dive back under, and at once I am like one of the creatures that have lived entire lives never knowing what's beyond the surface except certain death. But I'm not afraid of my inevitable end. There is much to appreciate down here. Those that thrive below the surface, and I truly long to be like them. I can feel my chest getting tight as I swim further down, and my breath can't keep me much longer. There is a secret treasure down here that only I can find, only I can have. Again I return to the surface, and fill my lungs with the air. The sun is shining bright, and I feel my skin warm slightly, but my body can't adjust. I swim to the shore, pull my small frame out of the water, and lay out on the land. My wet clothes are only serving to weigh me down, so I take them off and expose my naked body to the sun. There aren't anymore secrets out here. The wind knows my given name, and with it, takes all the knowledge I have and passes it along to whoever may be out there, waiting. The sky is a clear blue and as still as the water once was. I close my eyes and sigh softly. The breath that leaves my lips is soon replaced with another one I take in. And I feel fine.




Today was long. Correction- work was long. The day I had to enjoy myself, not so much. I did have the pleasure of joining Kelly and Arik for lunch and gelato, which is always nice. I don't really have a lot to say, my mind is tired but I'm not quite there yet, and I feel a little bit alone, which isn't necessarily a bad thing. Tomorrow's going to be an even longer day, I'm sure. School and work at both jobs. I'm just waiting for my next day off at my both places.