“if only you could see”

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if i could be a photographer, that'd be great.

this would be my life:

point.

click.

flash.

develop.

it sounds so very simple. and very serene. i could work from home. i could work anywhere i want to. but..who would want my photographs?

most photographers make a living on taking senior portraits. sigh. photogrpahy is a naive career choice. senior portraits or dance portraits. and the dance portraits are all the same. there's photography, and there's photography.

i dunno. i guess i was trying to make it sound more meaningful than it might be.

hm. i think i found my new year's resolution for next year. i'll reveal that later (and see whether or not i stick to that. hahahahaha.)

anyways i think it would just be nice to be able to stay home and take care of my child and not work (away from home) but that is very unrealistic especially now, when it's almost impossible to live on a single source of income for a family. if i only have two kids it might be possible...but then we'd be stretching it. i'm not good at saving so i'll have to teach my kids early on the importance of saving and things like that.

i feel a little disappointed in myself for writing about something like this. but oh well. i do this for myself.

it'd also be nice to be a published writer, but i'm not all that into english. i just like writing my stories. does anyone have a favorite story of mine?

it's three am and i have work at eleven and i planned on waking up at nine am...so that's less than six hours of sleep so i should probably go to bed soon.

we'll see how that goes.

did you see the moon tonight? it was nicely round, but i don't know if it was a full moon or not. there's something pleasing about a full moon. a moon that has had its filled and is nicely plump. it's a very positive image. it's funny though, a lot of people think the full moon makes people more prone to being crazy and animals too. maybe they feel the subtle tug on the earth. probably not.

well. good night. (: