I really wonder how you feel on these nights so alone

“if only you could see”

Questions for me and you! [edit]^2

Nov 13, 2008 || 1:18 AM || comment?

What book are you reading? Your Brain is (Almost) Perfect...I need to finish reading that.

What time is it now? 1.19 in the AM

What's on your mouse pad? I don't have a mouse pad. :P

Favourite board game? Pokemon Monopoly!

Favourite magazine? Discover.

Babies? Are cute!

Favourite smell? I can't think if I have a favourite...so a nice one is fresh cut grass. Or yellow jasmine. Smells like candy (:

Worst feeling in the world? had a headache, on two separate occasions, that made me throw up.

First thing you think of in the morning? must turn off alarm.

How many rings before you answer the phone? Depends, if you're not in my phone, I let it go to voice mail. If I know you, I answer as soon as I can.

Future child's name? hmmm....I don't know ): currently obsessed with: Hannah, Ophelia..don't know about boy names. Don't even know if I want to name my kids those names.

Favourite color? green! or yellow? don't really wear either one that much, I should get more clothes.

What is most important in your life? Making what I find to be a significant mark in this place. Feeling like I haven't wasted my life.

Favourite food? uh...cereal's yummy!

If you could play an instrument, what would it be? The upright bass! if I were a guy. ): some string instrument.

Do you like to drive fast? Kinda gives me a rush! Sometimes, yeah (:

Sleep with a stuffed animal? Does a lion pillow count?.

What type was your first car? '05 pontiac vibe! And will be for the next six years XD god damn financing.

Who is the person from your past you wish you could go talk to? From my past, personally? I don't know...

Favourite alcoholic drink? Never really had one before.

What's in the boot of your car? What's that even mean?

Do you eat the stems of broccoli? Yummy stems <3

If you could have any job what would it be? Not sure..

Ever been in love? Yep.

Glass half empty or half full? Depends on if you just filled it or just drank out of it.

Favourite movie? Jurassic Park.

Do you type with your fingers on the right keys? Hehe, nope! (:

What's under your bed? Carpet!

What is your greatest ambition? To make a worthy contribution to science.

What is your greatest weakness? Same as a flaw? communication.

If you could build a house anywhere, where would it be? A place where it snows...

What's your favorite article of clothing? dresses!

Beach, mountains, or city? Mountains.

Technology or art? D: technology + art = digital photography.

Comedy or horror? Horror.

Favourite physical feature of the opposite sex? Smile.

Favourite time of day? The time when I'm sleeping :P

The last CD you bought? Rush, Spirit of the Radio.

What's your favorite place to be massaged? kind of along the spine?

What's most important, strong in mind or strong in body? strong in mind.

What time do you wake up in the morning? 7.30, every weekday.

What's your favorite kitchen item? my awesome can opener! or the griddle at home! i have a lot of favorites because we have awesome kitchen items. in order of preference, however: MY can opener, griddle, wok, cast iron skillet. because you can kill a person with it!

What make you really angry? dumb insignificant shit.

Which do you prefer, sports car or SUV? sports cars! vroom vroom ;D

Do you believe in afterlife? I want to...this is the biggest fear I have about dying...

What is your favourite season? winterr.

If you could have one super power, what would it be? psychokinesis.

Do you have a tattoo? Never D:

Can you juggle? two things! much better at balancing coins on table top.

What is your favourite day? Thursdayyy.

Which do you prefer, sushi or hamburger? D: if you asked me, which do I prefer, sushi from Ichiban or hamburger from Southside, I would cry. but sushi.

What's your favourite soap? Softsoap I think? this yummy smelling shea butter kind...I think that's it.

What is your favorite meal? Stir fry that my mom makes, also tuna fish sandwiches that she makes...

If you could take a vacation anywhere in the world, where would it be? Aurora borealissss.

If you don't mind answering these questions, as a comment to my blog! (please don't say anything if you've seen this before, i hope you haven't!)(also, if you have done it before, please do it again anyways! it'll be fun for others to read what you've written!, after i feel that everyone who is going to do this has done it, i'll post a reply!)

1. You are walking in the woods. Who are you walking with?

2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal is it?

3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal?

4. You walk deeper into the woods. You enter a clearing and before you is your dream house. Describe its size.

5. Is your dream house surrounded by a fence?

6. You enter the house. You walk to the dining area and see the dining room table. Describe what you see on and around the table.

7. You exit the house through the back door. Lying in the grass is a cup. What material is the cup made of (ceramic, glass, paper, etc.)?

8. What do you do with the cup?

9. You walk to the edge of the property, where you find yourself standing at the edge of body of water. What type of body of water is it (creek, river, ocean, etc...)

10. How will you cross the water?

So, I was thinking about finishing up my second story from the other day....but I can't really think of how to move it along...I made it so vague, so...just a romanticized view of what I was really seeing that day in seminar. I wrote myself into a rut and I can't really think about how the heck to get out XD

Probably to start over, haha. :P

I think that no matter how...absurd an idea might sound, or just absurd in your point of view...I think it is important to find someone who will give you the time of day. Instead of completely rejecting the thoughts of another..to at least hear them out...someone to accept you, I think that's all that matters..

I have no idea about my plans for any kind of future. When do I want to get married/ have a family of my own? Where do I see myself after college? I don't have answers for these questions...but this kind of stuff, it's going to happen, probably sooner than you or I know it.

I have ideas about what I would like to do for that family.
I hope that I can make them realities.
I don't want to make the same mistakes my parents did.
Mistakes.
Or, things went exactly as they planned.
Until last year.

Why do you go through life, not speaking to someone standing at the same intersection as you, waiting for the light to turn? Is this not accepted behavior? Comfort level? I watched a girl as I walked to work this morning. We were heading in the same direction, so I followed her for about 90% of the time. Her legs were fairly white. On the back of the left leg, the opposite side of the knee, she like a small light blue bruise. A little higher up, she had these indentions, not anything gross mind you, but like...maybe she sat on something that impressed those lines into her legs. With every step she took, calf muscles jerked and I could tell she was athletic, but her red shorts gave it away as well. The kind of material like...sleeping bags? What is that? I never remember...then, she must have felt me staring at her backside, she tugged at her shorts, as if to move them down even the slightest bit, but to no avail. Her backpack had several zippers, all the main ones weren't zipped all the way, not obnxiously, but like six inches or less. She wore tennis shoes, of course, but I don't remember what they looked like. We stopped at the intersection, and no one said anything to each other. Is it because small talk would have made no significant mark on their day? What about me? Well, my pitiful contribution, we were standing at the intersection, and there was a car stopped at the light closest to us, except it was turning yellow. He'd already stopped, so we were gonna walk, and as one of us steps into the road, he suddenly speeds off. I said, "dick." and no one said anything to me. no "haha yeah" or anything...

Then again, what would you talk about to a person randomly hitting you up for conversation? the weather? music? recent news events? you might choose something that they would have probably heard about/know about/experienced in order to produce a conversation.

And then I think about the times people randomly start to talk to me, and I think "this person's kinda weird." except no...I think now they are trying to...what? get a little more out of life? I really like it when say the person taking your order to checking out your items strikes conversation with you...they don't have to, you know? However, as a cashier type myself, I find it easier to converse with costumers who are a bit more outgoing. There are always costumers that I think are rude, or could at least pretend they don't have sticks up their asses.

I was taking a call order once, and this lady in line was like "let's go somewhere else since /she's/ talking on the phone" and she said it with this attitude, as if I were chatting up my friend. "Oh hey girl! Okay, that'll be -insert amount- Hahah, see you in about 15 minutes!" Well...I might do that if it really WAS my friend calling in to make in order, haha..kind of bad example, but yeah. It made me really mad, because I am a better cashier than that. I wanted to shove that phone in her mouth. But I couldn't. Because I was TAKING AN ORDER.

Hahah okay back to whatever the heck I was saying earlier.

Or not...this is all just...haha, whatever.