“if only you could see”

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Who do ya trust? I can't even separate love from lust.

There's an excess amount of graphite of my hands, and there's a picture next to my legs. I'm fairly happy with it, and it is only the first of...maybe three or four. At least two.

Ah....the time is so late, and my butt is numb from sitting on the ground. My back is slightly burning from sitting uncomfortably, but soon enough I will lay down and drift into a dream world...that I won't even remember...

I'm all at sea...where no one can bother me..

Just me and my thoughts.

Why /do/ I feel sad? I guess it's because things seemed a little off today. Maybe I'm a little off today. But today is actually tomorrow, which is actually today. Maybe I should speak less often, and feel much more. I am determined to finish tomorrow's lab with no fuss from the two nerds. I'm listening to some soothing tunes, why do these men sing much higher than I can? I guess I fail at something like sending my thoughts to my fingertips and relaying them on this screen, I guess I'm still trying to hard to me things make sense.

Who cares if it makes sense?

I guess if I can't even remember why I'm typing this, then this blog is void of any meaning..

so write a story. full of meaning, hidden meanings, meaningful meanings that don't really mean anything because you've typed the word mean too much and now it's just a set of keystrokes.

i guess when your ass has gone numb it's time to put a pillow under your ass, or get up, walk around, use the bathroom, don't get a bladder infection because you were reluctant to get up because you are too lazy.

oh chariot, i'm singing out loud, to guide me, give me your strength..

You know what I want.