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Lucky.
Just a few words...much less than what I'd usually have to offer. It's only catching up to me now that we're not all together on this day. These lives are going to be full of things to do, and without much to think or say when we're all gone. There won't be time for us now. We're all going to be apart and I feel it now more than ever. Am I going to be able to handle that? Things that once were, won't be. I made a promise to not get upset if we weren't able to go to the same place, but I lied. It's going to be really tough and really...empty. That's how I feel right now. So empty and void of feeling, and I don't really feel like doing much of anything right now. I'm not tired, but I want to go to sleep, because in my dreams I have a constant purpose in those lives of mine. I save people, learn many things, take part in so much. I've never felt like this in my dreams. But then if I did, it wouldn't be a dream, but more like a nightmare.
I bought the new Jason Mraz CD yesterday. The song I've taken a liking to is Lucky, and the first one...I think it's called Make It Mine.
I got my hair cut today but my mom couldn't tell. I can tell. I've got some layers and new bangs that go to my left. I like it. It feels good outside, or rather, felt good when I was out there ten minutes ago. Today was an interesting day besides graduating. My sister and brother got in a fight, met some people for the first time ever and they bought me gifts and paid for everyone's food at Outback. They've been to Holland and have eaten kangaroo. The kindness like that in the world is something I hope I have. The Dutch were very welcoming to them because they were American. They would shake the man's hand with both of theirs and thank them for freeing them from the Germans. Such gratitude.
I'm going to play a dull game of cards multiple times while listening to Seasons by Bis.
