I really wonder how you feel on these nights so alone

“if only you could see”

Gblogs, and April Fool's Day

Apr 1, 2008 || 9:02 PM || comment?

So it turns out those sneaky kids/geniuses from Dinosaur comics, questionable content, and mr. randall have played a most amusing april fool's day joke. It's actually pretty neat I think since I was trying to get my daily dose of scientific humor but I'm greeted by cupcake science, and trying to go back to the dinosaur era actually brought me to mr randall. Nice one (:

In other news math state is tomorrow. For everyone who doesn't know, it's only the BEST thing ever besides nutella and national convention. Three days of math in Baton Rouge + laser tag and being excused from school. That's my kind of week (:

I still need to pack and or do other things such as laundry before packing, shoving in a few electronic goods in the form of digital photography and console gaming. I also need....what else do I need? Lots of things. Usually now when I'm typing here I feel as if I don't have anything new to say along the lines of what people didn't already hear earlier today at school which is probably why I feel the need to post stories. Or maybe ...I don't know.

I really enjoy writing my stories though whether or not many people read them. I wish I had one to write here right now but I don't. Unless I pull something out my ass and maybe make that work.

I suppose there are a lot of things going on this week and those things have been stressing other people but I personally don't feel a lot or any of this weight. So it makes me feel bad that I don't feel so bogged down about everything but I'm kind of glad because I'll be able to enjoy myself. I certainly don't mind lending an ear to anyone that needs it, either.

I kind of wish I had my own car now because like Harrison there's nothing like personal freedom and I would like my freedom to come in the form of not being a gas guzzler because sixty dollars a week is definitely not 25 for three. And I'm sure enough of you have heard me say that at least ten times now.

You've once said that you felt like a burden or weight on society...I don't believe that this is true. I think you're putting too much of a burden on yourself and you're not letting yourself how well you're really doing despite all of your circumstances. You've probably found me to be something less favorable these past few days and I want to let you know that I'm sorry, sorry that things aren't what they seem to you, and sorry that it affects you in that way. I would never do anything to hurt you like that, and I wish you could see that a little easier, without burdening yourself or hiding your true feelings. I always say that I'd wish you could talk to me more about these kinds of things, but maybe the reason why you don't is you find me utterly unapproachable, and I just have to say: I can see why you would feel that way. I'm stubborn, easy to get angry, and you have noticed this in the past. So keeping this in mind, why would you want to talk to someone who's only going to yell at you or ignore you?

Nothing has happened and nothing will happen. I'm with you because I love you, and if I wanted it any other way, well, you know. We don't exactly have the same interests when it comes to hanging out with friends, or extracurriculars but...you make me feel safe and even if I do get mad at you, I can't stay mad long (mostly because it's wrong for me to be mad at you over something stupid) but even when the few mistakes have been yours, you were always true to me..It must be hard to be with someone who pulls away at the slightest inconvenience, and for that, you have a lot of patience for me.

I've discovered flip animation mode on my digital camera. The name is misleading to me, because it's simply a mode to help one create stop motion movies. yessssss. This is a pretty cool tool that I'm doing very horribly at but there's a really awesome stop motion video on youtube that I like a lot made by a guy and a whiteboard. Another one that you might be familiar with are the coinstar commercials with the coins building the high heels or the set of headphones. If I knew how to edit out things like hands, I could make something awesome with clay figures maybe. Probably not because I can't sculpt for shit.

Words of advice: beware the crows that land on your car.