“if only you could see”

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the things that are going on in my mind, it's really crazy in there, like there are millions of things going on at once that I don't know what to really do about all of it and yet, I wish I were more organized (people that have seen my room, um, yeah.)

It's August, and several college help tips say that I should have started say, four years ago working on this. But, and unfortunately as I say this, nothing worth college essay material has occured until recently. I wish I were true scholarship material...there are these amazing competitions like Intel, and Siemens, and Davison Fellows....those are amazing kids that win these things, so one thing I wish I could change is that I wish I had been more involved. Why am I worrying about this? I suppose all of this seems overwhelming, and reading about Sam, he is taking a lot of great steps towards making college work for him, and now he has very interesting things to talk about when it comes to interview time, and I virtually have nothing. It's not just being involved, but involved and dedicated, because I could be a part of a lot of things, but if I don't take initiative, then I've accomplished nothing but a waste of time.

Anyways, enough complaining, I unfortunately have assignments looming over my head as we speak, I am a terrible procrastinator, and this will most likely be my downfall when it comes to physics and Chemistry, which, by the way, for anyone interested, my schedule. (:

1 - Health/Guidance (I know, but as I said, procrastination.)
2 - Chem II AP
3 - Chem II AP Lab (think we'll have one on the first day?)
4 - Physics (Moras says there is more than one teacher, if it is not Vanmetre, I will do /anything/ to get him)
5 - Calculus AP
6 - English 4 AP
7 - OFF

My not full schedule due to the strategic scheduling abilities of Barbe staff. Thank you Freshmen Academy. What is Freshmen Academy, you ask? Only the worst thing that has happened to Barbe high school. I remember being in the eighth grade. I remember a time where passing the LEAP test was actually required to pass the eighth grade. And now all I see are students who are not quite ready for highschool being allowed to do so, have their own part of the school, their own lunch period, and royally mess up the master schedule of Barbe.

This has inconvenienced MANNNNNNY seniors. And juniors. Myself, at least three of my friends, all revolving around third and fifth hour where they have the genius to schedule several classes at once, sorry that I wish to take AP courses, and that 90% of these classes I don't even need, of this I have been actually told by my counselor. Chem II Lab and Pharmacy Tech and French 6 and Psychology and Sociology, Honors Band, Football PE, at the very least, are all sheduled for ONLY third hour. This inconveniences a band friend of mine in French Immersion, myself, a football player in my French class, a friend of mine wishing to major in Chemistry in my French class, and sadly his mother won't let him take that class over in French, and boy do I complain. (:

Rooooarrrrr. That is meee, a big dinosaur. :x